From misunderstanding to real realization : Things an atheist felt during right bible study

As I went to school, I preferred mathematics and science to literature and history, so I naturally came to think about materialistic and reductionist ideas. ‘All functions are made by structure’, ‘ideas that are dug up one by one’. Parascience didn’t appeal to me and I hadn’t interest in it.

      

The idea that evolution theory was right come to me unconsciously and there was skepticism about the existence of God. To be exact, I didn't recognize it. I was more concerned with academics, career, self-development that is in front of my life right now.

 

 

 

In times of high school when it is hard for me to determine on university, I thought decision on university impacted on future life. I considered about my values and what I liked so I looked for books.

 

I wanted to be a person with firm values, a successful person, and a person who could help people around me. And when I decided to go to medical school, I thought, what kind of doctor would I become and what major would I be? The most interesting thing at that time was the brain.

 

  

I read a several books for my future

 

The brain described as ‘a miniature universe’, to me in the times, was unknown and infinite thing and was the center of human control.

 

Since then, I've read several books about brain and after I passed university, I've looked for philosophical books. What will happen to a person when he dies? Is there a world after death? How do people define happiness? Is happiness more than the action of hormones? Do people die in brain death? Can the soul exist separately? What is the only ability of a person compared with animals? Isn't the Earth just one parallel world? and so on

 

 

Brain, to me, is very interesting thing

 

I read a lot of books about philosophy, of course, and brain. but at a time when the system of thought was still not clear, I felt like my thought was scattered and it’s not just more than memorization.

 

When reagin the Western classics, I knew that they were rooted in the Bible. . I thought it was worth reading so I thought I'd read it. But there was a lot of rejection for me. I started to think whether I could get more than a lesson from this book containing absurd stories.

 

Finally, I read book because it was the most sold and the oldest book. I contacted a teacher who I knew. He taught me so I learned the Bible.

 

The first my thoughts while reading were 'I had lots of misunderstanding about this book', 'It isn’t just absurd stories or just moral things', 'It is logical and systematic', and 'It has different things from other philosophical books.'

 

From ‘Adam was not the first man in the world’, ‘Noah's flood did not occur all over the world’, The most amazing knowledge when I knew the bible was that although the written period was more than 1,600 years ago, the content was consistent and unified in front of and behind the Bible.

 

 

 

 

I was amazed that the problems of Old Testament was on New Testament as answers and the problems of this was on that. Any classic book wasn’t written in this way. As I learned, I understood the Bible, and my thoughts about God changed positively, and my own thought was established.

 

The love that Christians commonly talked about was not true love, the hope was not vain, and faith was not a true faith. God was saying something else but people were thinking about making their own gods and believing for their own comfort.

 

Naturally, I had come to realize what I should do, establish my values and what I deserve to do. Firm goals were made, so I can set my academic and career way.

I hope the readers of this article know exactly what the Bible really says and realize its novelty.